One of these days, it’s going to be Monday and I’m going to wake up and feel slightly ahead of the curve… today is not that day. Although, to be honest, I’m not exactly stressed out about my to-do list today… I just don’t have Slade’s 7 month letter ready, which was supposed to be today’s post, and it would’ve only been 10 days late. But, I guess if I’m going to be 10 days late then I can be 11 days late… right?
Right.
I’ll tell you what though, living constantly behind the curve can be massively stressful. I’m learning {the hard way} what boundaries look like. Specifically, boundaries over my time. And that I need them. I don’t just kinda need them, I NEED them. I received a crash course in the need for boundaries the week that my house had the flu and my family came into town simultaneously. I wanted nothing more than to spend 4 blissful days hanging out with my family but felt pulled every which way, and stressed to the max, which left me crying in a bathroom stall at IHOP on my mother’s birthday. Not OK! Boundaries!!! I need time boundaries! I’m juggling a ton of plates right now, and it’s almost like I have to say “this plate gets this much time in the air… this other one gets this much time.” “This is a big plate {husband/kids} you get the most.” Does that make sense? Figuring out what can be sacrificed and where, and the best way to do it… it takes lots of second guessing and a ton of wisdom from smarter people than me, but we’re getting there.
I’ve decided that starting a business is a whole lot like teaching an infant to swim! Hence the feeling like my head is underwater sometimes and feeling like I’m making strides in the right direction other times. I’m waiting for the moment where it sinks in that I know how to swim. Ah! I can’t wait!!! So much of what I read from other journeys of opening photography businesses this is a constant theme… the photography comes naturally, the business not so much. But, that’s ok! Who doesn’t love a good challenge and learning things one slow step at a time! 
In other news, I have lists running through my head constantly these days. My life is a list. And, if you and I have something planned that I don’t write down on my calendar… well, you can just assume that I will forget. Or double book. Or forget. I have lists for the business. Lists for the blog. I need add more things to my blog list. Lists for the store. Lists for the house. Wish lists. Needs lists. Lists, lists, lists! I tend to line my lists up and then pick one from one of them when I have time to work on anything. It’s not a perfect system, but it’s a moderately working system and it’ll do for now.
On one of my lists for the blog is part of the revamp that Cat is helping me with. I was recently picked up by Blogher TV network to host an ad on the site. So, you’re going to see that soon. It’s {i think} one of those like 15 second video ad thingamajigs. I’m testing it out, so it might stay for a while, and it might not. But, while it does, just keep in mind that I get paid every time you let the ad run it’s full length. My goal is to eventually work this blog into a source of revenue for my family, without compromising the integrity of what it is. So, that’s my promise to you {and myself}. I blog because I love it… if I can make money at the same time doing what I love, then fantastic. My focus is to get Rebecca Harvin Photography up and running and then focus on the money side of blogging and then run them both simultaneously. Lofty ideas… huh?
Also on my list is to write a post about Love and Marriage and Baby #2. I’ve had one in the draft stage for months now and haven’t had the right words {or the courage} to post it. But, last night I got permission from Brad to write it, and to write honestly… and so probably Thursday it’s going to be up. Or, if it seems like it’s going to turn into more than 1 post, I’ll wait for next Monday. But, it’s coming. I’m excited to finally write about the subject… without question, our marriage took the hardest hit after Slade arrived. Even just writing this little paragraph makes me want to write and write and write!
On that note, naptime is over… see you tomorrow with Slade’s 7 month letter.
Happy Monday Ya’ll!
